The Process of My Vigor.

I will start learning about something I find interesting or I begin to contemplate the vastness of a subject I initially knew nothing about. Today it was the names for all kinds of men’s shoes and hats. So I begin researching what the differences are.

That gets me riled up. I realize I want to make a book about it. Then soon after the fire is stirred I am for some reason forced to embrace the comatose air of an economics classroom. In this case I am being forced to sit still and think slowly.

This will make me antsy. I quickly find that I am wasting my time on something that is very easy to understand and I would rather spend my time learning about how to start a company. I start writing notes about my company on my hand. My knees begin to shake. I shift constantly in my chair.

“suppppply. demmmmand. suppppply. demmmmand. suppppply goes uppp. demmmand goes downnnnnn.”

ANTSY. Ready to learn. Ready to start my real life doing the things I LOVE. Ready to see all of my dreams come true RIGHT AWAY!!!

Then I leave the classroom, reveal my new ideas about being a CEO to my friend Deborah, I jump up and down a few times, and I leave her to g0 back to my room and learn.

Once I sit down I have a million thoughts a minute and the tabs on my safari are flying all over my computer. One of two things happen: One. my computer can not handle my enthusiasm so it shuts down or Two. as I reach a peak of wanting to know about all of these things, I realize I have no means of accessing all of the books that I want to read. I see that each costs $30 on Amazon and I am not willing to pay that amount for multiple books.

So my excitement whittles down to a one-dimensional emotion of fervor and then I take a nap.

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